Timing. That magical moment. The right moment. When everything you've been holding your breath for falls into place and it's magical and it works. Bad timing and it's the other way. It feels like you're losing everything and the heavy weight in the pit of your stomach...well that would be regret. God damn it. Missed my moment.
I tend to not live with regrets. I'm a fan of living life to the full but even when you try to do all that you can to avoid those moments of timing that lead to regret, still there are moments of indecision and opportunities missed that you will kick yourself for forever.
I thought about timing a lot today as I watched myself play out almost the same scenario that occurred 20 years ago and tried to make different decisions for a different outcome. It dawned on me tonight that at the end of the day it's going to turn out the same way despite my best efforts. And I'm starting to think...maybe it isn't just timing. Maybe there are no happy endings for girls like me.
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